Tuesday, 10 November 2009

Indigestion is quite fun

Attended a pre-conference workshop today from morning till evening and fed every 2 hours or so. Like the previous workshop where Prof John F. Leslie was invited, this one isn't going to be ordinary. We're honoured to have Prof Alexander Steinbüchel, Drs. Hideki Abe and Tadahisa Iwata. Man, big people, both status and stature, the latter especially true for Prof Steinbüchel.

Our guest from Westfälische Wilhelms-University, Münster, start off with the theme of the workshop and the conference: Bio-based polymers. Off he went about polymers. Fermenters. So far so good. Then came cyanophycin, KDPG aldolase-addiction system, and biorefineries.

Our Japanese speakers then dished out copoly(ester-amide)s, end-capped poly(L-lactide), and X-ray diffraction using their synchrotron, the SPring-8.

Wham! There I was, digesting bit by bit and making sense of every piece of information; not that their heavily-accented English helped. At the end of it, I have to give it to these men. Bright people living at the edge; the cutting edge technology. Imagine what the guys and gals in their laboratory could do. And here we have people showing off how good their research is.

I left that place enriched. Knowing that if I put my brain to good use (am doing that daily), nothing is impossible. New doors could always be open; could being the operative word here. If polyhydroxyalkanoates are but drops of water in the ocean, then chemosynthesis of new polymers would certainly paint a different picture for the environment.

Leaving that place also meant that I learned something: that is to be confident of what I'm pursuing. Start low but don't waste time. And make sure it's good science. I will remember to laugh at he or she who mocks the work of "lesser" beings, since if we're in this together how good can one be compared to the others. One thing is, I still can't see the rationale for all the competition happening right now in all possible directions.

Oh why, my fellow [still-a-lot-of-catching-up-to-do] researchers? Why?

Ah, knowledge is fulfilling and it gives me a good feeling.

Wednesday, 4 November 2009

National Principles, always?

WHEREAS OUR COUNTRY MALAYSIA nurtures the ambitions of:

  • achieving a more perfect unity amongst the whole of her society;
  • preserving a democratic way of life;
  • creating a just society where the prosperity of the country can be enjoyed together in a fair and equitable manner;
  • guaranteeing a liberal approach towards her rich and varied cultural traditions; and
  • building a progressive society that will make use of science and modern technology.

NOW THEREFORE WE, the people of Malaysia, pledge to concentrate the whole of our energy and efforts to achieve these ambitions based on the following principles:

  • BELIEF IN GOD
  • LOYALTY TO KING AND COUNTRY
  • THE SUPREMACY OF THE CONSTITUTION
  • THE RULE OF LAW
  • COURTESY AND MORALITY
I still remember the time when we're made to memorize the five principles above in school and even in scouting. The May 13 riot in '69 changed many things and these principle serve to preserve and promote unity among the people. Of course, most know that what we read in the textbook isn't entirely true based on official documents.

Today, whilst we still hold on to these principles and occasionally flash them in the television during National Day, funny we still see how some still trample on them and make a mockery out of the whole thing. But hey, these ideals and the visions of the founding fathers are reflected upon and often harped on during elections. It's the same all over the world right?

And I'm going to see the chiropractor in a day or two when the pile of stuff is gone. Killing me, both work and the pain.

Saturday, 24 October 2009

Figures, Julian. Figures

Just when I thought that my contemporaries are educated and learned; able to see beyond race. Able to argue cogently. Am not going into the facts since when one chose not to accept them, why preach? I erred. And I have nothing else to add. Save, maybe, that prospects are bleak for the country with such leaders at the helm.


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Thursday, 15 October 2009

Need We Do More?


For the environment? Yes. Much more. And we don't need Blog Action Day to remind us.

Tuesday, 13 October 2009

Sarcasm works, the first time

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Saturday, 10 October 2009

Ungrateful Neighbour

I'm not sure if there's anything to say on the 'invasion of Malaysia' plan except that these people are as primitive as the weapon they [chose to] use, not to mention blind to the many things we've afford them. And sometimes, we're puzzled why we (represented by our leaders) seems to abjectly submit to them yet dumb enough to antagonize our other neighbours. They seem to get easy access (1.8 million 'conspirators' looks like a significant percentage, legal or otherwise) and many, citizenship.

My message? No one gives a dang if you're of the same creed in the same region.

Gather around now, people, and sing the national anthem (said to be ripped from the Indonesian anthem). Figures!

Do read the article by Philip Golingai.

Tuesday, 6 October 2009

God in a box

The film, Where Got Ghost, like all Singaporean comedies feted the audience with crude jokes and clever wordplay that never fail to elicit bouts of ha-ha throughout the screening. Long story short, there was this part in the film where the sons of a deceased mother decided not to worship her (ancestor worship) due to many mishaps in life. They did so after some thoughts and comparison with their well-to-do friend; apparently blessed with all the good things in life (a twist at the end leaving us all in stitches).

Now, I was like, "Wow, so conditional". Little did I know, many weeks after the show that I began to see a similarity between the characters and myself. Whilst the saying only the sick needs the doctor still stands, things are different when it comes to my walk with God.

Many times, we put the focus on the wrong things and end up feeling all odd and empty. It may be unrealistic goals fueled by selfish motives or simply putting blind faith in humans; so-called Christians or not.

I'm not sure how I'd end this one but it'd be hypocritical to end by saying that I'm all clear now: no more doubts now, and never will. I'm better off putting myself under constant reflection and not to be disheartened by the heat or tempest from every compass points.

God help me.

(Picture credit: here)

Monday, 5 October 2009

One of Many Bells

One of many wedding bells toll for Theen Kin and Yee Lin. To the newlyweds, my heartiest congratulations. I was in KL (again) to be at the most happening place in Malaysia: the dinner reception. Regretted not being able to make it for the wedding ceremony a day earlier but I'm glad they showed clips of it. My favourite? The photo shoot, without a doubt. Genuine smile and that magical look I was told to look out for many years back. And there's all to it. It put words to every shot and summed them up perfectly.

My first and am enthralled by the whole affair, although I wasn't there in person for the main event. Apart from that, it was good opportunity to catch up (imagine, I haven't met the bride for about 3 years already) with friends. Was great to see a few living the life they enjoy: doing the things that are meaningful and not for the sake of doing it. Everyone has come a long way and it's been too long since we last sat down during recess time at the school canteen. Now we meet again in a banquet hall, draped and spruced up to celebrate the union of our schoolmate with her soulmate.

Ah, I could hardly see with blurred vision now. Must be the cold, or was it?

Monday, 28 September 2009

Meeting a Friend

I can't think right at this hour. I'm preparing for an interview for a research grant tomorrow and decided to deposit a very significant moment today. I'm in Kuala Lumpur at the moment for the said interview and apparently, there was a plan to meet a friend who was out in the cold for a good nine months or so.

It's so good to meet up with someone after that period of time. The knowing smile. The unsaid gladness painted all over the face. Face gleaming. Grinning. Then came the usual what have you been up to and all went into top gear from there.

A bubbling sensation was felt when she began to share how she'd overcome the oft-encountered patronizing behaviour of the so-called men and women of science; people calling themselves scientists and academicians. I'd prefer the term politico-scientist. Never mind me, I'm thinking weird at this time.

On and on she went about the environment, about choices in life, and family members of course. Also, her preparation and application for the Chevening scholarship. Go girl! It was a rather short reunion which lasted the trip from the Institute of Medical Research to Mid Valley City (I'm not sure how far though). What I got? Great feelings and a first day cover; the latter being the (in her words) the most valuable item in her room [located in a rather old student residential hall, I may add].

Next I met up with another friend in Klang, the place one could find the famed bak kut teh or pork rib herbal soup. There were lots of food and catching up to do. Laughs and walkabout highlighted the meeting. Didn't know I'd see another down to earth and simple outlook towards life in the mean world. I've got to better myself rather than complain on and on and did nothing.

Unforgettable trip I reckon.

Tuesday, 22 September 2009

Trigger Happy Wanderlust

love it. not so good at it.
good eyes. lack of ideal settings though.

am seriously thinking off backpacking around the country after graduation (which is a distance away) and which means I have to start saving which I already have. speaking of which, I wanted to snap some nice photos - of places and structures and not faces.

i remembered once in my sophomore when I was asked to do a write up on my choice of archaeological sites in southeast asia -- to digress a little; archaeology lecture was fun even though its just to fill the credit quota. thoroughly informative and interesting. too bad i missed excavation and practical since they're offered for though choosing to do minor. back to photography, not sure if I'd own a DSLR or just a humble digital camera, mobile phone camera, plus GIMP to finish it. the latter seem realistic i reckon.

someone suggested writing a memoir. maybe a few more years, yeah? time to dry the wings and fly already? you bet.

good memories. disorganized compilation (this is an oxymoron, by the way)
great plans. unsure where to start.
am excited. real excited.

Saturday, 19 September 2009

Strengthen harmony, learn acceptance

Prime Minister Datuk Seri Najib Tun Razak has called on Muslims and the people of Malaysia to strengthen harmony and break down any prejudice for the sake of the future generation.

"Let us make use of occasions like this to restore and strengthen relations among us Muslims and among us Malaysians," he said in his Hari Raya message.

Najib also called on the people "to repair the existing bridge and to expand it by building new ones."

"Let's break down the walls of prejudice, hatred and apathy for the sake of our children's future," he said.

More here

Another Aidilfitri (Eid ul-Fitr) address from the Prime Minister. Whilst inspiring festive messages abound through the years, can't help but think that it's only meaningful for the 15 minutes broadcast and forgotten soon after.

One should always be aware that disrespectful behaviour - whether a 'spur of the moment' thing or otherwise - could bring about feelings of discontentment and tension. Although the Eid is all about forgiving and seeking forgiveness (as are other mirthful festivals celebrated here), let not harmony be a once-a-year affair. No more senseless hollering and/or parading with an animal head. Yes, break down the walls of prejudice, hatred and apathy but don't stop and stare after the walls crumbled. Don't stare at the other guy but learn to live together; accepting and respecting his/her rights as a human being.

After 52 years, infantile screams and demands are unacceptable. Let cool heads prevail. I'm waiting to sup with my dear friends at another friend's Raya (from Hari Raya; day of festivity) open house. Ah, come soon 25th for I can't wait any longer.

Thursday, 17 September 2009

And I Wish...

The festive mood is upon us again. And after countless laugh-filled fast-breaking sessions with the mates from the lab, now we get an invitation for a feast come the month of Syawal. Shout outs to Mimi, Asyura, Firdaus, Firdaus, Shameem and Farid. Not forgetting their boss Dr Zary Shariman and my boss Dr Normi; this Eid her first with her hubby.

Ah, the thought of scrumptious food...

Selamat Hari Raya Aidilfitri, Maaf Zahir dan Batin

Friday, 11 September 2009

We Remember

the billowing smoke
the lives snuffed out prematurely

the crumbling buildings
the shattered hearts

the sombre mood
the quiet cries
the inconsolable grief

we'll remember that life is precious
wherever. whenever.
to heal, reconcile and move on.

(Photo from here)

Sunday, 6 September 2009

The Ever First Time I Saw Your Face

The first time I ever hugged you
and felt your heart so close to mine
the first time ever I saw your face
I just wanted to protect you
and help you through the hungry years
because you're part of me
for you are special, a miracle from above

The first time ever I carried you
I'd been waiting for the moment for years
I thought it would not come.
Gladness, joy and thanksgiving filled my heart
The first time I ever saw your face.
You're the angel from the above
only God creates such perfect love.

So be free, spread your wings
a whole new world is waiting for you

By one C. Wong in today's Heart and Soul column of the Sunday Star; inspired by the Roberta Flack song (The Ever First Time I Saw Your Face).

And I've always wondered why there exist people who couldn't appreciate life whilst others struggled to conceive.

Monday, 31 August 2009

52 Years of Independence

The country celebrates its Independence Day today, 52 years of nationhood after centuries under the rule of the Portuguese, Dutch, and of the British. It's really nice to see and reflect upon; the fact that the country is made up of not only a type of people, but many different races. Another thing is that we speak more than one language and we don't have to attend classes to be able to master them. And then there's the food. Scrumptious selection of food.

Although unity is the keyword, we've had our share of racial riots and tension. And we have communal-hero-wannabe politicians playing up racial issues. When we thought we'd be known by one name, we're given designations like Malay, Indian, Chinese and Others. In neighbouring Indonesia, they have over 30 ethnics/race yet they go around by the name Indonesians.

I've said before that unity isn't a yearly affair nor is it scripted for the silver screen. No doubt, we have some true Malaysians trying to send the message home via their short films and commercials and I don't have any problems with that. In fact, I love them and almost always touched by them, moved to tears if you like. What I'm saying when I mention silver screen and scripted in the same sentence is that we have, on one hand, politicians (sigh, again) preaching unity during some ceremonies and on the other hand sow mistrust among the people. And they have the cheek to promote the country to the world. Shame. I wouldn't invite guests to my house if I haven't tidied up.

Yes, it was a proud moment for everyone when the first Prime Minister, Tunku Abdul Rahman, proclaimed the nation's independence although I only see it in black and white clips (so I couldn't say I comprehend the whole affair fully) but are we really truly independent in the sense that we're able to self-rule and not model everything after our colonial masters? If the British employed the divide and rule strategy back then, I don't dare say we're a homogeneous society today. I don't believe that leaders of the same colour only represent their own i.e. Malay leader ensuring the rights of the Malay, the Chinese their own and the Indians too. If one is able, who cares if you're of a different hue?

Aren't there still outdated (or archaic) laws being used today? What was created yesterday for a specific purpose being used to silence the voice of dissent today. Sovereign state yes, but it seems that we're mentally shackled. Unable to make our own decisions, unable to make known what we truly wanted.

To sum it up, 52 years is a relatively long time and yet short if compared to other nations. In some ways, we can be proud of our differences but in others, it's a sad affair to see how we're still identified based on our colour and creed. The government use the various laws to detain men and women perceived to be a threat to the nation's security / stability yet no real measures are taken to promote greater unity. Lots of speeches but no real actions. They preach tolerance but I wish to say that acceptance is the better word. No?

EVERY DAY, there is sure to be at least one news article about racism – be it to “remind” the nation to live in harmony, or a report about disrespectful behaviour towards another religion...

Happy Independence Day!